Something has happened in the last year. I can't put my finger on exactly what or when it was, but I've changed. I'm not afraid like I used to be.
I was never really all that scared to begin with but I had your average, everyday fears all the same.
All I know is now I'm just not as scared. I'm not apprehensive to do things that used to scare me to death or at least bring butterflies to my stomach. Public speaking/singing is still a big one, and one that the butterflies have hung around for, but even so, I do it with more ease now.
Maybe this is all a part of getting older? Maybe this happens for everyone at some point?
I'm just surprised and happy that it's happened now. I'm ready. I think maybe a part of it is continuously caring less of what people think.
Don't get me wrong, your opinion is valid and even important to me and to God. The difference here is I won't let your opinion or other's opinions change the way I think, act, speak, etc...I know, so elementary...but it's a huge weight lifted for me.
I can't tell you one person who I'd listen to more than God. Seriously. His voice is now the loudest, above all the Nay-Sayers, pessimists, and even well-meaning criticizers.
I'm sorry, your opinion just doesn't trump what God says about me, personally.
Cool thing is He thinks and says the same thing about YOU.
You are wanted. You are called by name. You are so loved. You are talented. You are worth more than you know. You are thought of. You are known. You have a future. You are enough.
No need to let the voices of others drown out the only voice that matters. Don't be afraid. Don't be ashamed. God's truth about you lasts longer than your's or other's view of you.
*On another note, I really want to go on roller coasters everyday now just to have the adrenaline of being afraid :)
